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On 1/25/2025 at 4:41 PM, Wyobraska said:

@Nevada Convert

Hey Mike, if you have the energy and want to do this, feel free, if not, no worries.  

What are some of your favorite memories or experiences in your life so far?  

Too many to mention. Little League Baseball was certainly a highlight. I appreciate everything so much.

I appreaciate the fun I've had on this board and the MWC Board, however, I do very much regret not letting my true self be known to you all, enough. I feel a very special connection with you all, and I really regret being in trolling mode too much. Because that's not me at all.  So, regrets are something you can't change, but the truth is that I have very much loved and appreciated you guys. I can't even form sentences that well, anymore. But you get my point. 

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It's getting really close to check out time because of the pain. Suicide is a sin because it's a waste of a human life. However, if you're terminal, ending your life early to avoid unspeakable further suffering is reasonable. God is a reasonable, loving and understanding God. He knows what's on my heart. He knows that I LOVE LIFE so much and just the thought of having to end it is just torturing me. It really is. It's, by far, the toughest decision and planning process I've ever faced. Nothing comes close. I've been going through horrible suffering because I just hang on. I think I can do it, and then I can't. 

Circumstances don't give me the luxury of ODing on certain medications like sleeping pills because me body rejects virtually all medications. So instead of just falling asleep and fading away, I'd burn to death. I get tremendous burning in my chest and lungs and whole body. Like someone lighting a match up to you and setting you a blaze. I can't take pain medications, no benzo's, not even blood pressure medication. My Lyme Disease has my body rejecting them all, right now. Right now my blood pressure is 225/130. and there's nothing I can do about it. If I take a blood pressure medication, it'll spike my blood pressure, and I'll also burn even more for taking it.

So my options for checking out are very limited. And that makes things very stressful. And you're going to have to combine two to ensure it really happens, and you don't end up an invalid and suffer even more. So this isn't going to be pretty folks when the time comes, because it just has to be. My heart is just about to give away because of the constant high blood pressure. I can't afford to have a heart attack on top of what I'm currently suffering. 

So, it's not going to be pretty, but there's nothing I can do about that. I don't want to spell it out or get too graphic with my plans because it wouldn't be appropriate. But not being able to talk about it makes it all the more lonely the process is. But you guys have helped me so much through this, I can't even tell you. It makes me pretty damn emotional. 

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On 1/25/2025 at 3:33 PM, Nevada Convert said:

It's getting really close to check out time because of the pain. Suicide is a sin because it's a waste of a human life. However, if you're terminal, ending your life early to avoid unspeakable further suffering is reasonable. God is a reasonable, loving and understanding God. He knows what's on my heart. He knows that I LOVE LIFE so much and just the thought of having to end it is just torturing me. It really is. It's, by far, the toughest decision and planning process I've ever faced. Nothing comes close. I've been going through horrible suffering because I just hang on. I think I can do it, and then I can't. 

Circumstances don't give me the luxury of ODing on certain medications like sleeping pills because me body rejects virtually all medications. So instead of just falling asleep and fading away, I'd burn to death. I get tremendous burning in my chest and lungs and whole body. Like someone lighting a match up to you and setting you a blaze. I can't take pain medications, no benzo's, not even blood pressure medication. My Lyme Disease has my body rejecting them all, right now. Right now my blood pressure is 225/130. and there's nothing I can do about it. If I take a blood pressure medication, it'll spike my blood pressure, and I'll also burn even more for taking it.

So my options for checking out are very limited. And that makes things very stressful. And you're going to have to combine two to ensure it really happens, and you don't end up an invalid and suffer even more. So this isn't going to be pretty folks when the time comes, because it just has to be. My heart is just about to give away because of the constant high blood pressure. I can't afford to have a heart attack on top of what I'm currently suffering. 

So, it's not going to be pretty, but there's nothing I can do about that. 

I’m so sorry for what you’re going through, I can’t even imagine what you’re dealing with. I so hope your pain eases in some way, this literally brings me to tears. I hope you can find some relief, somehow. 

Thanks so much for everything you’ve contributed to this board, and the MWCboard. You helped make them fun, when I certainly needed fun..

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On 1/25/2025 at 4:33 PM, Nevada Convert said:

It's getting really close to check out time because of the pain. Suicide is a sin because it's a waste of a human life. However, if you're terminal, ending your life early to avoid unspeakable further suffering is reasonable. God is a reasonable, loving and understanding God. He knows what's on my heart. He knows that I LOVE LIFE so much and just the thought of having to end it is just torturing me. It really is. It's, by far, the toughest decision and planning process I've ever faced. Nothing comes close. I've been going through horrible suffering because I just hang on. I think I can do it, and then I can't. 

Circumstances don't give me the luxury of ODing on certain medications like sleeping pills because me body rejects virtually all medications. So instead of just falling asleep and fading away, I'd burn to death. I get tremendous burning in my chest and lungs and whole body. Like someone lighting a match up to you and setting you a blaze. I can't take pain medications, no benzo's, not even blood pressure medication. My Lyme Disease has my body rejecting them all, right now. Right now my blood pressure is 225/130. and there's nothing I can do about it. If I take a blood pressure medication, it'll spike my blood pressure, and I'll also burn even more for taking it.

So my options for checking out are very limited. And that makes things very stressful. And you're going to have to combine two to ensure it really happens, and you don't end up an invalid and suffer even more. So this isn't going to be pretty folks when the time comes, because it just has to be. My heart is just about to give away because of the constant high blood pressure. I can't afford to have a heart attack on top of what I'm currently suffering. 

So, it's not going to be pretty, but there's nothing I can do about that. I don't want to spell it out or get too graphic with my plans because it wouldn't be appropriate. But not being able to talk about it makes it all the more lonely the process is. But you guys have helped me so much through this, I can't even tell you. It makes me pretty damn emotional. 

I'm sorry to hear how painful it is.  I've always felt that life is never black and white but rather it is lived in shades of gray.  I wish you peace and comfort.  

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No one knows what they'd do under similar circumstances (if a person says they do, I call ABSOLUTE B.S.), so this is hard for many of us to read - let alone comprehend.  I'm just sad that you have to go thru such pain/agony - all the while wanting to hang on for as long you can.  Pretty brave stuff (all around), if you ask me...

I wish there were an easy way for you to go about things, Convert - to both continue living AND (someday) die - but it seems you're being directed down a rockier/more difficult path than most  And for that, again, I'm sorry that it "has" to be this way for you...

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On 1/26/2025 at 1:42 PM, sjsbuff said:

No one knows what they'd do under similar circumstances (if a person says they do, I call ABSOLUTE B.S.), so this is hard for many of us to read - let alone comprehend.  I'm just sad that you have to go thru such pain/agony - all the while wanting to hang on for as long you can.  Pretty brave stuff (all around), if you ask me...

I wish there were an easy way for you to go about things, Convert - to both continue living AND (someday) die - but it seems you're being directed down a rockier/more difficult path than most  And for that, again, I'm sorry that it "has" to be this way for you...

Yeah, it is, but that's life. I've had a lot of blessings in life, so I don't try to feel sorry for myself too much. It's natural to do a little of that, but that's also part of being human. I try not to be jealous of everyone having a great life while I suffer. That's when the man in you kicks in and you just say there are other people that suffer similar fates, and take it like a man. So that's what I'm trying to do. I appreciate your post very much and I love you, man. So I'm emotional, that's also what happens at times like these. 

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On 1/25/2025 at 5:45 PM, 4UNLV said:

I’m so sorry for what you’re going through, I can’t even imagine what you’re dealing with. I so hope your pain eases in some way, this literally brings me to tears. I hope you can find some relief, somehow. 

Thanks so much for everything you’ve contributed to this board, and the MWCboard. You helped make them fun, when I certainly needed fun..

You're such a sweetheart. 

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On 1/25/2025 at 4:10 PM, Nevada Convert said:

Too many to mention. Little League Baseball was certainly a highlight. I appreciate everything so much.

I appreaciate the fun I've had on this board and the MWC Board, however, I do very much regret not letting my true self be known to you all, enough. I feel a very special connection with you all, and I really regret being in trolling mode too much. Because that's not me at all.  So, regrets are something you can't change, but the truth is that I have very much loved and appreciated you guys. I can't even form sentences that well, anymore. But you get my point. 

My friend…you are a damn legend!  The trolling was epic.  Getting to know the real you a little bit is really cool.  I wish I wouldn’t have been such an ass and trolled back as much as I did.  You’re a good dude and this board won’t be the same without you.

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On 1/28/2025 at 10:21 PM, Cowboy Up said:

My friend…you are a damn legend!  The trolling was epic.  Getting to know the real you a little bit is really cool.  I wish I wouldn’t have been such an ass and trolled back as much as I did.  You’re a good dude and this board won’t be the same without you.

I love you, brother. Don't apologize, you were just goofing around. You're one hell of a good person and a good man. Don't ever think otherwise. 

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I can't believe we have two threads going on at the same time. One for the Sports Board, and the big one in the Politics section. I just wanted to say I appreciate mugtang allowing for a spot for me to be myself and let people see who the real me, is. I wish I had let this side of me show the whole time. This is who I am to everyone I know, but should've also been real on here. Lesson learned from me, but at least I've had the opportunity before I have to go. I love you guys very much. I really do. I can't tell you how much you guys have helped me through this process, and I'm forever grateful. The hardest part is that there's not a lot more time to interact with you guys. 

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On 1/29/2025 at 3:09 PM, Nevada Convert said:

I can't believe we have two threads going on at the same time. One for the Sports Board, and the big one in the Politics section. I just wanted to say I appreciate mugtang allowing for a spot for me to be myself and let people see who the real me, is. I wish I had let this side of me show the whole time. This is who I am to everyone I know, but should've also been real on here. Lesson learned from me, but at least I've had the opportunity before I have to go. I love you guys very much. I really do. I can't tell you how much you guys have helped me through this process, and I'm forever grateful. The hardest part is that there's not a lot more time to interact with you guys. 

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I usually reflexively skip over the pinned thread.  I haven't paid this thread the attention it deserves.  Hope it's not too late.

So sorry to hear what you're experiencing, @Nevada Convert.  May God bless you and ease your burdens, both in this life and the next.

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On 2/6/2025 at 1:19 PM, Pelado said:

I usually reflexively skip over the pinned thread.  I haven't paid this thread the attention it deserves.  Hope it's not too late.

So sorry to hear what you're experiencing, @Nevada Convert.  May God bless you and ease your burdens, both in this life and the next.

Love you, brother.

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